Jiah Khan’s Suicide Letter

Jiah Khan’s mother Rabiya khan has released Jiah Khan’s suicide letter to media.







To all concerned,
Some sections of the media and some film industry people are speculating that my daughter Jiah committed suicide because of depression related to her career. However the truth is that it happened only because of the trauma and the abuse she suffered at the hands of Suraj Pancholi and his father Aditya Pancholi. 
This I know from what Jiah shared with her sisters and me and also from this letter written by Jiah herself that I am attaching here with which was found three days later by my younger daughter in a wallet box belonging to Jiah when she was searching for some poems written by Jiah to be read out at her prayer meeting. 
I have decided to make this letter public so that everyone may know the truth behind my daughter’s tragedy.
Below given is a transcript of Jiah’s handwritten letter:.. I am also attaching the photocopies of the actual handwritten pages of her letter

                                                                  Yours truly 
                                                                                       Rabiya khan

                                    Jiah’s letter to Suraj pancholi

“ I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday. These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore. When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something. The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives. All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this”

  1. Baba Ji 10 years ago

    what is the proof that its not forged?

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      sputnik 10 years ago

      This was released by her mother on twitter. I am sure there will be handwriting experts who will compare her handwriting and analyze the letter.

      But why would someone forge a six page letter which just says that she was hurt by his cheating and how he treated her. And why would they reveal that she aborted a baby when no one knew that before.


  2. Manish Kumar 10 years ago

    i read it … i was actually thinking that the tone of media changed after first day when they reported abusive sms as far as i remember , after that they gave all the stupid reasons for suicide , the way letter is written again same stuff showing how deeply she was hurt this can be reason for suicide .. Those given by media felt stupid

  3. Rica Cane 10 years ago

    who is suraj pancholi?

  4. ank_16n 10 years ago

    i have read it in the evenibg itself…..

    will like to mention aditya pancholi is a big fraudster……
    so it won’t surprise me one bit if this is true….
    though yes we should also listen to other side…..

    moreover police didn’t found this suicide note ,jiah’s mother informed police of this after 2
    days of her death so their can be something fishy …..as all were blaming jiah’s mother for her plight…..

    police is still to verify this letter so will wait for this…!!

  5. Tanqeed Movies 10 years ago

    Aditya Pancholi

  6. Sanket Porwal 10 years ago

    What’s more saddening is that they have disclosed this in media. What about her privacy? There is so much written that we all dont even know. They should have revered her privacy. Sad!

  7. Nilda 10 years ago

    It’s sad, but still cannot justify suicide. Besides things look quite fishy here.

  8. yakuza 10 years ago

    Very sorry for Jiah. I can understand the trauma she had been gone through. I just wish she controlled herself on those black hole moments and waited for things to turn for good, only time could heal her wounds.

  9. aryan 10 years ago

    Jiah Khan’s suicide: Sooraj Pancholi detained by police

    Sooraj Pancholi, son of actors Aditya Pancholi and Zarina Wahab has been detained by the Mumbai police in connection with the suicide of actress Jiah Khan. Khan, who was reportedly dating Sooraj for a year, hanged herself at her Juhu residence on June 3.

    While initially Jiah’s suicide was thought to have been caused due to work-related depression, a six-page long unnamed letter found after the actress’ suicide – written by Jiah – blamed her troubled relationship for her extreme step.

    “I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday,” read Jiah’s letter.

    Both Sooraj Pancholi and his father, actor Aditya Pancholi, had been questioned for over four hours on the day following the death of Jiah Khan. Rabia Amin Khan, who handed Jiah’s letter over to the police, had held a press conference where she blamed ‘unrequited love’ for the death of her daughter.

    Jiah had shot to fame following her debut opposite Amitabh Bachchan in the 2005 film ‘Nishabd’.


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    sputnik 10 years ago

    Suraj Pancholi arrested

    “Actress Jiah Khan’s friend Suraj Pancholi has been arrested by Mumbai police in connection with the 25-year-old’s suicide. Suraj, son of actors Aditya Pancholi and Zarina Wahab, reportedly dated Jiah for nearly a year. He was the last person she spoke to on the phone on the night of June 3, police said, before hanging herself in her Mumbai home on June 3.”



    ‘ Memon cited an incident in which a young boy committed suicide after leaving behind a note blaming two people for having harassed him in connection with the payment for some computer parts that they had sold to him. “In that case, the court held that the charge was not applicable,” said Memon. Another instance when this issue came up was after model Viveka Babajee ended her life leaving behind a note saying, “Gautam you killed me”.

    Section 306 of the IPC (abetment of suicide) has been in the centre of raging debates in the recent past. In January this year, the Supreme Court held that in order to convict a person under the section, there has to be a clear ‘mens rea’ (intention) to commit the offence.

    “It also requires an active or direct act which led the deceased to commit suicide seeing no option, and this act must have been intended to push the deceased into such a position that he committed suicide,” a lawyer said. While disagreeing that the charges were applicable to convict the landlord, noted lawyer Y P Singh stated, “It is required that the abettor has to commit a positive act of instigation or provide implements that would facilitate the suicide. Mere harassment does not amount to abetment of suicide,” he said.

    “The Supreme Court, in several rulings on abetment of suicide cases, has held that there must be a clear case of instigation by direct or indirect acts. The deceased may have blamed someone but that doesn’t constitute abetment. Here, his intention is the key,” said advocate Aabad Ponda. “It is not as innocuous as it seems. The test is to see whether the instigation, if any, is such that it can drive a prudent person to commit suicide, or if the note is left by an emotionally troubled mind.”‘


  11. aryan 10 years ago

    The police have said that before Jiah’s suicide, Suraj spent two nights with her

    Aditya Pancholi’s son Suraj held for abetting Jiah Khan’s suicide

    MUMBAI: Bollywood actor Aditya Pancholi’s son Suraj was arrested on Monday evening for abetting actor Jiah Khan’s suicide. The action follows the delayed discovery of a letter by Jiah in which she holds an unnamed person responsible for her extreme step and mentions abortion, pain, abuse, torture and rape. Suraj, 22, was reportedly in a relationship with Jiah and was the last person she spoke to on phone before hanging herself at her residence last Monday.

    Earlier on Monday, the police recorded Jiah’s mother Rabiya’s statement again, where she repeated her allegation that Suraj was the man Jiah addressed her letter to.

    Jiah’s family found the letter in her handbag and gave it to the police on Saturday.

    “We registered an FIR under the IPC’s section 306 (abetment of suicide) on the basis of Rabiya Khan’s statement and arrested Suraj. We will produce him in the Andheri court on Tuesday for remand,” said senior inspector Arun Bhagat of the Juhu police station.

    The police had initially stated there was no evidence against Suraj, but after the letter’s appearance, they consulted legal experts about its contents before deciding to book Suraj. A police team went to the Pancholi residence in Juhu around 5pm and took Suraj in custody. His mother and sister followed him to the police station in a separate car; they left from there around 9pm.

    The police have said that before Jiah’s suicide, Suraj spent two nights with her. On her last day, she phoned him, wanting to meet him, but he refused; instead, they had an argument. The police have been examining Jiah’s phone for communication details. In Suraj’s phone, they found the messages the two exchanged deleted. On Monday morning, ACP (west region) Vishwas Nangre-Patil and DCP Chhering Dorje, along with other officers, visited Jiah’s residence for more clues.

    On Monday, Rabiya also held a press conference at her home, in which she reiterated that Jia’s suicide was not due to a lack of assignments, but her troubled relationship with Suraj. “My point is to tell you the truth. It is being said that she was depressed and had no work, but it was not the case,” Rabiya said. “She was attending at least three to four events a month. She was making money and was living comfortably in her house with two maids and even had a car and a driver. It was the insecurity that her love was not respected and recognized that was killing her day by day.”


  12. aryan 10 years ago

    Boyfriend Suraj Pancholi sent to jail till June 27

    Suraj Pancholi, the prime accused in the Jiah Khan suicide case, was on Thursday sent to jail till June 27 by a Mumbai court. The investigating officer informed the court that Suraj had deleted messages from his mobile phone and the police needs more time to probe the case.

    Meanwhile, the post-mortem report of the actress, who committed suicide in Mumbai, has suggested that there were no external injuries found on the body. Jiah’s mother Rabbiya Amin-Khan had alleged that Suraj had beaten up her daughter. Rabbiya had also said that there were injury marks on Jiah’s face.

    The 22-year-old aspiring actor was arrested on Monday after Jiah committed suicide by hanging herself at her Juhu residence. Suraj had admitted that he was in a live-in relationship with Jiah but denied abetting her suicide.

    The arrest was based on a six-page suicide note reportedly written by the 25-year-old actress, and her mother’s Rabbiya Amin-Khan’s statement to the police. A note written by the actress revealed that she was abused in the relationship. Five other love letters were also found that were exchanged between Jiah and Suraj. The Mumbai Police have revealed that the hand writing on the letter have matched with Jiah’s handwriting.

    The police is now verifying if the letter is genuine and have also recovered five letters from Suraj’s house and Jiah’s abortion report. While speaking to CNN-IBN, Suraj’s mother Zarina Wahab denied all charges and said her son should be punished if found guilty. She denied that her son was in a live-in relationship with the late actress.

    Actress Jiah Khan, who made her debut in 2007 in Ram Gopal Verma’s ‘Nishabd’, was found hanging in her Juhu flat on June 3.


  13. Author
    sputnik 10 years ago

    New twist. Letters from Jiah found at Suraj’s place. Handwriting looks different.

    What Jiah Khan wrote to Suraj Pancholi


  14. Author
    sputnik 9 years ago
    • hithere 9 years ago

      If she thinks there is a foul play then she can take court course but publishing pictures is not good.

  15. aryan 9 years ago

    Jiah Khan Was Murdered, Says Forensic Report

    The Jiah Khan case is back in news, after the new Forensic report revealed a shocking information about the death of the actress. If the recent reports are to be believed, there seems strong proof that hints that Khan was possibly murdered. According to a leading daily, reports from Kalina Forensic Laboratory suggest that human flesh and blood has been found under the fingernails of the deceased Jiah. Also other signs of struggle have been noticed. Reports further say that alcohol was found in her body suggesting incapacitation to some extent, which indicates that she may have been easily hanged by another person. These points surrounding Jiah’s mysterious death case, somewhere suggest a strong possibility of murder.

    A while ago, Jiah Khan’s mother Rabia Amin had reportedly petitioned the Bombay High Court alleging that her daughter may have been murdered. She demanded that the case be investigated by the Central Bureau of Investigation, since the then earlier probe by police was quite hush-hush and mostly in benefit of the accused Suraj Pancholi. Rabia Amin’s petition reportedly claimed that Jiah Khan was possibly murdered before being hanged. The petition also raised 10 key questions, that points at the fact that it was possibly not a suicide case, but a homicidal death.

    Read more at: https://entertainment.oneindia.in/bollywood/news/2013/jiah-khan-was-murdered-says-forensic-report-124452.html

  16. alfa.one 9 years ago

    yes, there r many questions on this issue now. May be it is not suicide.

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